~BeA~

2004-12-31T04:59:00.000-08:00

my hatest holiday would have to be new year`s eve.it is so damn noisy.i know that`s the whole point of new year, and that`s why i hate it.i was supposed to get a haircut today.i planned to get it cut in bench fix but there was this waiting list and if there`s anything i hate doing,it`s waiting so i left.i tried david`s and ystilo but there was still that waiting list thing.i left of course.my mom told me to go to provost but then i got so frustrated so i told her i wanted to go home na.i wasted my outfit >c.for the rest of the day i just bummed around,waiting for 12 AM so that i could jump so that i`d get taller.i tried it 2 years ago and it didn`t work.i think it made me shrink more.it`s schooltime again.NOOOO!!!i hate school even more now.there are so much stuff.i.p,long testSSSS and exams!!i have to start studying.bio`s really long.AS USUAL.
2004 has been a bad year,but not the worst (i think).i regret doing things i did during the past year but i surely can`t undo it.i have no new year`s resolution.i never do it anyway.this vacation has been bor-ing.at least i got to rest.
year ender survey i got from friendster:
1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never donebefore?
*checks diary* hmmm.i got my hair relaxed for the first time,i first talked to *toot*,1st time i took my horoscope seriously (hehehe),1st time i got another *toot*'s pic,first time i went to glorietta w/o my fam (w/paula though),1st time i saw *toot 2* outside of the usual places i see him..and..there.that`s about it.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, andwill you make more for next year?
NOPE.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
i`m not really sure.i don`t quite remember..
4. Did anyone close to you die?
yap.my lolo
5. What countries did you visit?
during 2004?none.we stayed here the whole year.
6. What would you like to have in 2005 that youlacked in 2004?
more faith in myself i think.
7. What date from 2004 will remain etched uponyour memory, and why?
june 15-clarified something personal hehe july 13-1st time i saw *toot2* but he was asleep hehe july 24-met *toot* july 26-1st time i saw *toot2* awake and erm biting his nails haha (but he`s still so gwapo)august 12-i got super kilig for the first time in that year :)august 31-pussyketz victory in sabayang pagawit :) nov 26-saw *toot2* in town :)
8. What was your biggest achievement of theyear?-
dunno.i guess my biggest achievement is that i managed to survive in sophomore year.with all the problems and school stuff and all.yap.i guess that will be it.
9. What was your biggest failure?
my english 2nd quarter exam.being blind to what was in front of me.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
yap.got fever
11. What was the best thing you bought?
my phone :)
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
my family,friends,the pussyketz and most especially myself :)
13. Whose behavior made you appalled anddepressed?
hmm.that would be ____,____,____,_____ and _____.oh and ____
14. Where did most of your money go?
shopping
15. What did you get really, really, really excitedabout?
family day (which turned out to be a bore) erm and getting kilig hehehe
16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
not really sure.there would be a lot of songs though.my boo.hehehe.we got super addicted to that song.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. sadder or hapPier: sadder AND happier
ii. thinner or fatter? fatter!:c i`m working on it..
iii. richer or poorer? dunno
18. What do you wish you'd done more
more..studying..
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
being lazy
20. How did you spend Christmas?
the usual.with my family.opened gifts,ate noche buena..
21. Did you fall in love in 2004?
erm...
22. How many one-night stands?
never
23. What was your favorite TV program?
one bad trip,spongebob..hiram :)
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hatethis time last year?
yap.
25. What was the best book you read?
many to mention.all the books i read were good.
26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
that my voice isn`t that bad after all.hehe.i managed to blend with the others during sabayang pagawit.
27. What did you want and get?
clothes,new phone,chucks,and a certificate for each quarter
28. What was your favorite film of this year?
hmmm.i dunno.i don`t really wanna think right now
29. What did you do on your birthday, and how oldwere you?
14.went to greenbelt.went shopping.with my family of course
30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
if i got the things i wanted.not really material things.more of erm,not material things
31. How would you describe your personalfashion concept in 2004?
depends on my mood.
32. What kept you sane?
i was sane?!
33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy themost?
brad pitt :) other hotties..kevin zegers hehe
34. What political issue stirred you the most?
elections.FPJ`s death..i cried!!how embarassing..
35. Who did you miss?
secret :)
36. Who was the best new person you met?
erm..secret :)
37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in2004:
better live each day of your life to the fullest coz we can't bring backwhat's already done
38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:dunno.don`t wanna think.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!EXACTLY 2 HOURS TILL 2005!!:)

2004-12-16T04:00:00.000-08:00

at last!christmas vacation :o i`ve been waiting for this for a long time now.3 more months till summer!i can`t wait.this day went by quite long.we checked our long test in english and i`m sure i`m going to get low.i barely passed in the 1st one.what more in this one :o.we had our bio long test next.it was easier than i expected and i was happy enough that she took out the chart and put the concpet map back.i hope i get high in this one.i really need high grades now since my grades are really getting low.we had health after and since ms cameros was absent, we watched a film about smoking.while i was watching the film i got really worried because my mom smokes.the consequences of it are really bad and i`m worried they`d all happen to my mom.i swear.i have to make her watch the film.when we were small, me and my sister would always to tell her to quit but until now she still smokes.i hope those stuff don`t happen to her.we had a quiz during math and then we discussed in history after.JAPAN WAS REALLY LONG.we had a quiz after and nothing really entered my head.we had the quiz in the IMC and there were no table for us to use so we had to write on our laps na lang.so when we were starting na the quiz,i heard sina karen,monica and kathy murmuring.we were right in front of miss sulit, so i asked them "what are you guys doing?" and then i realized they were sharing answers.so,sumali ako sa kanila.hehehe.i got about 3 numbers from them.er i think more but it doesn`t really matter.kathy felt so bad she was saying "God help us" hehehe.i have to confess.during filipino we had to rewrite our sulatin.since we finished early ms fabul made us sermon again that she doesn`t have a favorite DAW .oh wait.before that nahalata ko that pinagtitripan niya si mimi.mimi was so inis that she looked like she was gonna cry.she eventually did.and when fabul saw her she was all "o mimi umiiyak ka?" blah blah.my god.what a biatch.we think she did that to mimi coz everyone thinks that mimi`s her favorite and now she`s treating her in a real bad and insulting way to show that she`s not fabul`s favorite but it makes it (the favoritism) show more.we told mimi not to mind her coz she was a person na "walang kwenta" but then if i was in mimi`s place,i`d feel the same.all of a sudden kathy went to mimi and she said "mimi are you crying?" in such a smiley and happy way (while everyone else was serious) then she started laughing and she turned so red (duh).this kinda eased the galit and inis everyone was feeling.i swear.we should get her fired.during computer we had another quiz which i`m sure i`ll fail.then we had religion and we just watched a film.GEOR AND NICA:thanks for the really big message you had for me in the blackboard.it was really very big.after, i was soo happy to get home na.when i got to the bus,they told me michie fell daw and hit her back (and she couldn`t bend).so i was extra careful since i might hit her.it was our last day before vacation and michie wasn`t hyper :c.on the way home i felt so hyper at first.but then pau told me that she told someone something which made me feel so bad.not that i`m mad at pau.but then when she told me i said "aaaargh!" but then i told her i wasn`t mad.it made me feel really bad!it`s christmas time but i have so much problems in my back.i can forget about school temporarily but i can`t forget about this one.i felt so bad i wanted to cry but then i forced myself not to.well, at least not in front of my busmates.it`s really so unlucky because that someone only met this certain person this year and they get close na kaagad.it`s so unfair coz that someone was with us for a year and i was wishing that i could get close to that certain person na for 3 years and for that someone,it only took less than a year.:c my story is kinda confusing if you`re not aware of my tragic life.basta "that someone" and "that certain person" are 2 different people.i felt super super bad.our driver was making me inis pa.he was saying "siguro magkatabi silang dalawa ngayon".i felt SOOOOOO mad and inis that i screamed at him to stop it.i`m sure he`ll understand.butch has the pic of *toot* (pak u *toot* and *toot2*) pat said *toot* looked so cute there but butch said *toot* looked like a devil.hehe.i swear.he is so bad.at least he got it.he has to send it to me through bluetooth but i rarely see him so i`ll have a hard time getting it.i have to think of a way to get it.oh well.i might eventually DELETE it anyway.so much for drama.g2g.
This is the last day I’ll be wishing for him, the last time I shall cry, and the last moment I shall hurt myself. Tomorrow, if I see him, I’ll just whisper, “Tama na, masyado ko na siyang minahal.”

2004-12-12T06:35:00.000-08:00

this day is such a depressing,frustrating and boring day =O this is the most boring family day of woodrose in the entire history of history.gold sucked in cheering (duh) but at least we won overall :) i expected to lose in dance team competition anyway.right after the cheering i wanted to go home na but then my mom can`t go pa coz she was waiting for my tita.so, i went with goer,nica,jenica and van.as time passed it got boring-er and boring-er and boring-er.bits was in our family day (i guess he wanted to see someone special hehehe :)..oh wait.he wants to see candi`s classmate who likes him.eh.how yabang.typical).i told bits to tell iko to come to the family day.i told bits to say that "i`m (bits) in the family day of woodrose.you wanna come?" but then, he wanted to say "bea said come to the family day" --which of course i didn`t like coz it would make me look like a slut.besides iko had exams.he has to study.anyway, i kept bugging bits to tell iko to come but then he said "how is he gonna go here?he lives in sta rosa (as if i didn`t know :o) he`ll commute?" (in my mind -- YES) -- anything to see him.but then bits said "why will he go here?he`s not madly in love with you!" ugh.i hate him.i swear.i HATE him.bits is becoming so yabang and mean to me na.after that I VOWED NEVER TO TALK TO HIM AGAIN.everytime i ask him something about iko he..i guess insults me.sobrang laki na ng ulo niya (figuratively of course).so before that thing happened,bits told me to tell butchoy na lang to tell iko.i said "ayoko.madaldal yan".enough about that.woodrose was so empty.so little people went.duh.it was boring.oh ya.while we were walking along the pathway, we saw jay.when he was a few feet in front of us,and he was looking at us already,nica said in a really loud voice,"bea,it`s jay!"and all i did was stare at the floor coz i felt so hiya.hehehe.gosh.i didn`t even eat lunch!i just fed on junk food and drinks and snow cone.when we got SUPER bored,we went to cuenca, moneyless.we just looked around.pampalipas ng oras.then we had to go back to woodrose for the awarding.blue won cheering (we were 4th - duh),blue won attendance,we won the cheerdancing outfit (unbelievable coz our uniform reminds me of power rangers),we won most of the games, so we won overall.CHAMPION!!anyway,after,i went to the bazaar.oh wait.before i continue,one of my rubbershoes broke.the ilalim of the shoe got out.in school it wasn`t sticking out that much.anyway,i bought nica the von dutch cap,and one for myself (it`s fake - duh.original is a thousand +) i just went around coz i felt really tired.i wanted a spongebob shirt,but then i had no size so i told the lady to get me a smaller size and i`ll come back next weekend.after cuenca,we went to town.i was gonna buy the cd`s for geor and jenica na.i was going to withdraw in the atm center near armani but then the guy in front of me was so tagal and i got impatient so i went to the other atm near the cinema,which was broken.i went down to the one near north park and it was broken again.then i walked back again to the one near armani and realized it was broken too.so i used my credit card na lang.when i was paying na,the cashier told me it was expired na.gosh.i had no money.i`m so unlucky.i got so pissed and tired of walking na so i was in a bad mood in rustan`s.i wasn`t the only one in a bad mood.my shoes too.the ilalim part finally got off.and it was nakasabit coz it didn`t completely come off.this made it even worse.i was "limping" in town,alone,and the people pitied me coz they thought i was disabled.that really sucked.i ended up borrowing money from my mom.i had to walk all the way to bearhuggs to buy paula`s gift and i walked all the way to powerbooks to wait for my mom.the ilalim part of my shoe finally got off when i was in delifrance.alleluia.i felt so frustrated.ugh.it`s school again!!!ugh!at least it`s vacation next week =)

2004-12-10T02:57:00.000-08:00

today was the last day of practice.alleluia!:o this day was particularly more tiring than the past day.but i was a lot more fun.we had general rehearsals today.i didn`t like our parade after that.but then we made quite a lot of changes and now,i like it.except for our cheerdancers though.they gave us more dances to do and it was better coz we didn`t look so dead.so now, i just found out jolo revilla got this 15 year old girl PREGNANT!!basta the girl is rosanna roces` daughter.gosh.that girl ruined the rest of her life.especially with jolo revilla.I HAVE NO VOICE!!>c and its not even family day yet.i expect that family day to be boring.major boring. on my way home from school,i pranked people i didn`t know.i got hyper all of a sudden.although our windows were closed i was "asking" the people passing by "are you my friend?" (coz my busmate was asking me are you my friend -- the "friendster friend") and i ended up asking people i didn`t know.although they didn`t hear.i fooled the guard in my busmate`s village (he raised his eyebrow at me :o),a number of students who just stared blankly at me,this little kid who made an expression na parang "what?" and this girl who was laughing at me.so anyway, my mom`s somewhere and i have the house all to myself,except that my sister`s here.ugh.i STILL have to go christmas shopping and i STILL have to buy the von dutch cap tomorrow.

2004-12-09T18:16:00.000-08:00

we had intrams practice today.it was really really tiring.and boring.at least it`s the last day of practice tomorrow.paula told me i looked like nina (the singer).she`s the third person to tell me that.the other 2 are andrea alquiros and maw.how weird.i don`t think i look like her.anyway,enough about those stuff.i kinda like the parade better than the opening coz we have more formations and dances.we have to dance like the cheerleaders but then it`s quite okay.i want to try out next year with tracy but then i have to take lessons so that i`ll get in.oh, and our parade isn`t kiddy now.that`s the best thing i like about it.on summer,i`m taking either jazz or breakdance classes (or both) and yoga classes.yoga looks so cool and relaxing so i decided that i should try it out.i also wanna go wall climbing because paula has been asking me to go with her.besides,i haven`t tried wall climbing in my entire life and this is my chance to see if i have what it takes.hehehe.i was so pissed last night.i was excited for the family day coz i was going to see a friend.initially my friend was going but then last night that friend told me that he had to go somewhere.something like a family reunion.i was so pissed because i wanted to see my friend again (in a NOT more than friends way -- like everybody thinks it is.)i mean just because i USED TO like him..doesn`t mean that he`s my boyfriend or anything.my gosh.when i start texting or even talking to like a certain guy they all think i like him.my gosh.
i have to go christmas shopping.this weekend i hope.i wanna buy a von dutch cap!!:o i have to have one before family day (which means i have to get it tomorrow or on saturday) i`m now getting so tamad to go to the BORING family day.typical.oh well towel.

2004-12-08T20:10:00.000-08:00

today was one of my typical days.nothing unusual.we had health instead of bio.what was frustrating about it was that we had a quiz (which we were supposed to have a week ago but then classes were suspended so we practically forgot everything we studied).we discussed then we had a quiz.i`m expecting either to get low or fail that one.ms amador wasn`t there so we didn`t do anything (as usual) during art.we had mass after.i found out i forgot my money at home so i had to borrow money from nica.i was so hungry and during mass i planned to eat pizza but i ended up eating bread sticks.boo hoo.we had math after and we just discussed ratio and proportion.it can get confusing sometimes.i hated ratio and proportion ever since we discussed that when i was in grade 4 i think.we had filipino after.we just presented the pictomap I STAYED UP LATE FOR.good thing we got perfect.then we had lunch.i hated my baon but then i had no choice since i forgot my money :( lunch went pretty fast today.before the bell rang,we saw ms santiago.what made it different was that parang monica did something.or her dad did something.it was really really funny.ms santiago looked like a lost little kid.she looked like she was about to cry (like the time practically the whole class failed the plantae quiz)we had english after and as usual, ms lotivo was late. while waiting for her for 40 minutes,mimi,princess,kaye,wendy and paula did the thing they were going to perfrom on the christmas party.it sounded so good.when they were done mimi started doing crazy stuff again.she was in the middle (coz we had to arrange our chairs in a sort of like a semi circle) it was like she had the mimi show again.background about the mimi show: it was all the way back during grade 5 (5A specifically) mimi was a new student by then but then she was already kalog.she had this "show" every lunchtime in the corner near the teacher`s table.everyone would gather up there,watch her and keep on laughing.i remember this day i bought lunch in the canteen,i had to run so that i`d get to watch it.hehehe.we were so babaw.finally,nav decided to call ms lotivo.it turned out that SHE FORGOT.wow.what a teacher!there was a presenting group pa naman and they only had like 20-25 minutes to present.we had CAP after and we had to do this activity about virtues.then we had the rest of the period to ourselves.as usual there were a few people left in the classroom -- the usual people.we just talked about different things.from their rosemont years to our primary years.it kept us laughing nonstop.after school me and my sister went to town to meet my mom.i tried to go christmas shopping in rustan`s but then there weren`t good stuff.i saw one but then it was 700 bucks.it was a set of shower gel,shampoo,perfume and those stuff.if i`m going to give my friends that i wonder how much it`ll cost me.we went to festi to eat in don henrico`s.after that we went home.
oh ya,it`s mon mon`s birthday today.happy happy happy happy birthday!!:) i hope he enjoyed his day coz he`s a person who really deserves it.:) g2g.

2004-12-06T18:21:00.000-08:00

Which is harder to do, hope that the one you love can love you or try to love someone who loves you? Both are hard, right? But the hardest is when you fall for the one who loves you just when the one you love is finally falling for you.
Magulo talaga ang mundo. ‘Pag gusto ka, ayaw mo. ‘Pag gusto mo, ayaw sa’yo. Pero ang masakit, mahal mo, mahal ka, di nga lang kayo
One night the moon told me, “If he makes you cry, why don’t you leave him?” I looked back at the moon and said, “Moon, would you ever leave your sky?”
Too bad I fell for someone I can never have

i got these stuff from my old site which i will shut down sooner or later.you guys can still leave messages in my chatterbox but then all my blogs will be here na.anyway,this day went by really slowly.during flag ceremony mimi was unbearable.she was singing super loud and she was right beside me.plus she sweat so much.ya, i guess i have to hate her for that.but then sometimes she can be a good friend.and i know all the kalokohan she does is just a joke.history was such a boring period.i hated the subject and i will FOREVER hate the teacher.bio was UNBEARABLE.i hate this lesson.it will be like the DNA lessons.i swear.i don`t get the point of studying this.as long as you can move that`s fine enough.math was ok.we`re having a quiz tomorrow and we can use a calcu.too bad my scientific calculator is lost.my mom`s gonna kill me when she finds out.oh well.during lunchtime i had to return biology:unity and diversity of life (AT LAST!).i ended up paying 30 bucks.there goes my money for recess :(.filipino sucked.AS USUAL.it`s expected.PK was so sungit and EPAL.religion was the best subject.we didn`t discuss.we just talked about stuff.we talked about other people`s impression on woodrose.THEY THOUGHT WE HAD FENCING,POLO AND TEATIME.my god!where we play polo?!what the fuck?!and then other people think that we`re so arte,"posh-y" and some even think we`re hot.karen was making kwento that during their soccer game there was this guy who asked the WR soccer varsity.can i take your picture?it`s for our newsletter.haha.what the hell?!and then all the guys daw were cheering for woodrose.hehehe.at least our kaartehan has class unlike other schools,like BENE,their kaartehan is so JOLOGS.sometimes we say we hate the rules in woodrose but then deep inside we still love woodrose.i can`t imagine myself studying in bene.i bet the people there will hate me.anyways,during english,ms lotivo was kinda mad coz we were so noisy.it didn`t matter anyway.we had to stay overtime to fix our activity sheets.
we`re dissecting a frog tomorrow.i`m kinda excited and kinda not coz it`s really gross.oh well.let`s see what happens tomorrow.

2004-12-04T22:48:00.000-08:00

i`m currently thinking of shutting down my xanga site and using this instead.i dunno why but then i think it`s time to use blogspot.sometimes i get tamad to change my layout and with this site i don`t have to do anything but post.
anyway,classes again tomorrow.i felt so guilty last thursday coz i was wishing for that super typhoon to hit our country so that classes will be suspended.i got my wish but then it killed a lot of people.i just felt so guilty.
it`s almost christmas and i haven`t bought gifts yet.i don`t even feel it`s christmas.at least we only have 2 more weeks till vacation.we might go to baguio during the break but then i`m not in the mood for baguio.
i`m going to the grocery with my mom later.it`s going to be sorta a bonding session.ha!bonding sessions never help.